hmmm..... i realize that my current skills is not enough...
i wanted to open some comission but i still not confident with my current skills...

so i decided to go back to "skelaton hill" and "meditating" for several days, months or even years
good is not enough if you can be better you know^^

so you maybe won't see me around for a while....
i hope i will gain new power by doing this

but before i leave, i want to answer some faq that often asked to me, both in real life or online life^^...

Q: what's your name?
A: Zamboze, but if refer to my real name, than it's Aditya Dharma

Q: what's the meaning of zamboze?
A: don't know... okay i know.... but i won't reveal it now... there's only 2 people in the world that know zamboze's meaning...^^

Q: are you male or female?
A: guess^^ hahahahaaha... okay i'm a male... hope you're not dissapointed...

Q: how old are you? 25? 26? 27?
A: i'm still 22, dammit! is my face looks that old? (this is often asked in real world...)

Q: are you attending to an art school?
A: No...

Q: why not?
A: why should i? (suka-suka gw!^^)

Q: then where did you learn drawing?
A: i learn the very first drawing from my older brother when i was little... after that, self thaught... but now i'm learning from my co-worker who is a veteran in art (in my country). he's an art school teacher and one of those who build DUFAN (it's like an amusement park like disneyland in my country). hahahahaha now i get art lessons for free withouth entering art school^^

Q: who's your favourite artist?
A: mostly japanese artist like Shunya Yamashita, Ugetsu Hakua and many more. but in DA i realy likes Artgerm, wen-m, nebezial and more.

Q: wow you're realy talented... maybe i will not be as good as you...
A: ah.. i'm kinda bored with this kind of comment... but all i want to say is... YES! you can! even better than me now! i was nothing back then in 2005. i always get a bad score in art when i was little. but i like to draw! my text book full of drawing. even i ever kicked out of class because i'm not listening what my teacher said because i was drawing at that moment... so if you like to draw, just draw! show it to others, accept their comments and constructive critics, then fix your problem in your next drawing. and before you know, you already become a pro! and don't hesitate to learn from others. just like what Ki Hajar Dewantara (one of educational hero in our country) said, "niteni, niroke, dan nambahi" which means observe, imitate, and increase it. find someone who have awesome skills. observe how he can achieve that skills, imitate their methods and increase it with your own method. even that what TOYOTA did back then and make them success....

Q: but you're natural talented...
A: no.. i'm not natural talented. just like i said before, i was horible at art when i was little.... but i never give up!..
so from now on, why don't you "make" your natural talent? act as if you're natural talented. act as if you're destinied to be a professional artist someday in the future. just draw no matter how bad your skill. because you know that someday you can get an awesome skills that even a natural talented man can't achieve. accept any constructive comment because it can help you develop, and ignore any sarcastic comment because they just don't know that you can become the one someday in the future.
don't make any silly excuse because the more excuse you make, the more excuse you will get. your excuse will be the reason that you're not improving. from now on just believe in yourself and look what will happen...

well that's all for today, and... until we meet again^^....